It’s a very frightening moment and time in my life because I don’t always connect to the energy of God. I don’t feel in control of my power to tap into the energy of God. I’m often left questioning the presence and existence of God.

For so long I was absent from the specific feeling of affection. I went years without hugging, embracing, empowering and uplifting myself or anyone else. It was neither given nor received. I shut myself down and went into a shell. There is much of a false me hidden and tucked away in this dark fantasy land.

She is dangerously erotic, absent of sensuality, aggressively seductive and destructive. She is cold as ice and as threatening as a Black widow. She has no impulse control while constantly chasing fulfillment outside of herself. Intrigued by the manipulation of power and control. She is a masochist of some sort. Deeply rooted in perceiving pleasure as pain.